Well, another week has gone by and again it kinda just feels like a blur. I spent an unfortunate amount of time this week being really angry and upset at everything that’s happening right now. I wish I would’ve spent more time being productive and working on all my projects and papers, but I’m trying not to be too hard on myself right now. Yesterday I cried because I thought about the dress that I’m not going to get to wear to cotillion. Now, it’s important to know that the dress I cried over doesn’t actually exist because I had not bought one yet but still, there were tears. Today I cried because I thought about how I’m not going to get to go to a real class again. I’ve also been thinking a lot about how strange working on my thesis feels now. I loved going to the lab, seeing my friends, and working on projects. Sitting at my laptop alone in my room just doesn’t make me want to do work at all, so I’m working hard to find excitement and motivation to work again. It’s all just weird and sad and uncomfortable. I’m hoping this week will be better, here’s to less crying and more productivity.